By Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
In The Sickness of My Reality: Essays About Duality, Romanian author Adrian Gabriel Dumitru offers a deeply personal and philosophically charged collection of essays that probe the fragile boundary between inner states and outward existence. This is a work born from emotional turbulence and introspective inquiry, aiming to make sense of the contradictions we all carry.
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The core premise: emotional algorithms and broken certainties
According to the description on Google Play, Dumitru admits:
“I have this obsession of writing about love relationships and the weird algorithms which are defining the dynamic of such a story … as a process of self therapy … trying in fact to heal my broken lost soul.”
He frames the book as both a journal and a philosophical laboratory. Each day, each emotional surge, becomes a data point in his attempt to understand how love, confusion, hate, desire, and identity entwine.
He does not shy from calling his reality “sick” — not in a pejorative sense, but as an acknowledgment that his inner world is fractal, disordered, and in flux.
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Key themes
1. Duality in emotional life
Dumitru treats duality not as a poetic flourish, but as existential infrastructure: love/hate, devotion/doubt, clarity/chaos. To live is to oscillate, and the essays traverse that oscillation with courage.
2. Identity under erosion
Who remains when your certainties crack? If your emotions shift daily, is your self anything more than a story? Dumitru confronts these fractures head-on, admitting uncertainty even as he writes.
3. Writing as catharsis & experiment
This book is as much therapy as literature. Dumitru repeatedly refers to his writing as “self therapy,” a way to externalize inner turbulence, inspect it, and perhaps heal — or at least understand.
4. The beauty in brokenness
He does not reject the “sickness” of his inner world — rather, he finds in it a mirror of the human condition: flawed, messy, contradictory, but ultimately truthful.
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Why this book matters for readers in the English-speaking world
• In an era of polished social façades and emotional filters, The Sickness of My Reality reminds us that inner disorder is not a crime, but often a deeper reality.
• Dumitru’s vulnerability and honesty resonate with those who feel dissonance in themselves but lack language to name it.
• For readers of modern philosophy, confessional essays, or emotional memoirs crossing into metaphysics, this collection offers raw, original voice rather than formulaic structure.
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Reception & highlights
On Google Play, the book holds a 5.0 rating (based on 10 reviews) and has been praised for translating emotional chaos into clarity. One reviewer said:
“Raw, honest, and deeply introspective … there’s beauty in the nonsense — and he captures it perfectly.”
The Google Play listing emphasizes how Dumitru writes “never being ashamed of [his] thoughts, feelings and emotions … looking so lost … being in fact so lost … drowned into the illusion.”
On Google Books, the preview underscores the deeply autobiographical nature of the essays, the recurring obsession with love and heartbreak, and the oscillation between clarity and confusion.
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